And I don’t really know why.
I am currently sitting on my sofa in nice homely clothes - and its cold outside and possibly raining.
Wrapped up all snug in a duvet with my laptop and hot chocolate I’m currently cursing my ill state - I feel so horrifically ill and its not fun or fair.
As people may or may not have noticed - I have deactivated my Facebook for the time being, as much as it is a very useful tool to use to network and meet people, it is also the 2010 drug. Once hooked you’re always on it, constantly. I am trying to exist without it as I find it causes more arguments than anything else and creates irrevocable Chinese whispers with shocking ease.
Halloween is this Friday and I don’t know what I’m doing - I really wanted to post a makeup tutorial for male vampires, with alluring eyes and gorgeous cheekbones. But this fevery mess that I have currently become prevents 99% of all creativity.
I find myself wondering a lot when I’m in this state of mind, what does the future hold for me? I know definitely that I am a work in progress and I wont be complete for a very long time. I say this in regards to almost everything in my life, including behavior, image and skills.
Moving to London was such a great thing for me to do, the epicenter of all things I’m doing. I have a journey ahead of me and I try, ever so desperately to not look back. But every now and then it is neccesary.
I’ve noticed there are a lot of unanswered questions on this blog. and I want to make an FAQ video for YouTube in which I answer 10 questions - so go ahead, ask me whatever you want.